5 posts tagged “frustrated”
i want to apologize for the severe lack of blogging that has been going on but i promise i have really good excuses.
the first being i'm home and that means that the computer is not always logged online for fear of viruses and hackers coming onto our desktop and eating it. also this means that the computer is slow as hell for no apparent reasons. i mean why would i want to open two web pages at once? that's just crazy talk. so pretty much internet use is kept to a minimum partly because of the lurking viruses and also because prolonged use on this machine makes me want to hurt people.
and while we are on the topic of computers the second excuse has to do with allastair my lovely dell laptop. something happened to him and now the keyboard is all messed up. the number row and the asdf row have combined so whenever i type "a" or "1" i get "a1" the same goes for "s" or "2" i get "s2" and so on down the line. so pretty much i can't enter any passwords or type any extended posts or emails in anything under thirty minutes. i'm going to be using the graduation moneys i received to get a macbook! i am soooo excited. hopefully this purchase will be happening soon and perhaps that will lead to an increase in my internet presence.
the third and final reason for not blogging is that there has really been nothing to blog about. i'm home in va beach for the summer. there is nothing to do here. also i'm apparently unemployable as evidenced by the thirty or so job applications i've filled out in the past three weeks and my continuing lack of a job.
to keep myself busy and also because it's driving my mom nuts i've been slowly starting to go through...essentially all of my worldly possessions. i started out in my closet and have found notebooks and notes from high school, notebooks from freshman year of college, letters from family and friends for my high school graduation and my art portfolio from the introduction to art class i took freshman year of college. i threw away most of the notebooks and most of the portfolio but i kept a lot of the letters and pretty much all of the notes. oh high school.
i have done one exciting thing so far over break. the faint came to the NorVa and i went with a group of friends to go see them. we got pretty close to the stage and the band played and amazing set. curtis and i even got to go to the afterparty and meet the band! i will upload photos eventually. my mom's computer takes half an hour to upload two pictures and god forbid trying to post them on the internet. i'd be here for days.
i hope everyone out there is having a wonderful summer. i'm open to book suggestions and job connections :)
i'm supposed to be starting to pack up things i won't be needing for my last few weeks here at Tech. so of course i'm taking the time to answer emails, find and read new blogs etc.
i think i'm going to be heading out early early tomorrow morning (hopefully around 6am), swinging by that school down the road to pick up emily and hopefully getting back to the beach by early afternoon. the forecast is saying it's going to snow tonight, so i'm crossing my fingers that it's not too much. i really don't feel like trying to drive down all these twisty mountain roads in ice and snow.
i'm really indignant about this snow though. on tuesday it was about 80F here. everyone was in shorts and skirts and tank tops. now it's freaking freezing and i have to get all bundled up to ward off the freezing wind. grar.
in other news, i got halfway into grad school. i applied to Catholic University for a masters in moral theology/ethics, despite my undergrad being in biology with a minor in literature. they said i'm accepted but i need to take 12 credits of religion or theology classes and 9 credits of philosophy classes as prerequisites to my MA. so i'm not exactly sure what i'm going to be doing, i'm probably going to defer for a year (there are more scholarship opportunities during the fall semester) and take a semester's worth of classes at Tech. but that's still all up in the air. plus, if i stay here i need to find somewhere to live and a job kind of soon. it's frustrating and i sometimes wish they had just rejected me because then there would be less stress...more disappointment but definitely less stress because it would be much clearer what i could/couldn't do.
i still haven't heard any more from the internship people but i'm keeping my fingers crossed for the summer in Seattle (not that i have anywhere to live there either).
ah jeez. why must everything be so complicated?!
i mentioned earlier i was taking the LSATs and that i would post about how i did. well, i got my scores back about a week ago. i did alright but not awesome, so i'm not sure if i'm still going to apply to law school or not. meh.
on a happier note: HALLOWEEKEND. so much fun. so much alcohol. so much face paint...
this is why i was hesitant about getting vox. i always either forget to update or abstain from updating because i don't have anything to write about. it's depressing to me to feel like i have nothing to write about so that doesn't help matters either. i'm not about to start blogging about my day because nothing super exciting happens and blogging about going to kroger and taking naps is boring, no one wants to read about that. gr.
other annoying things in my life include, hyperactive swimming lesson students, orientation kids, not getting enough sleep, being hungry but not wanting to eat, being hot all the time, having no drive and the impending doom of fall RA training. SO depressing.
but it's not all bad. i mean i found out that because of summer school and the classes i'm signed up for next fall i'll actually finish my biology degree after fall semester, so that means next spring all i have to do is finish 8 credits of Medicine and Society classes and take fun classes!! i really want to take ceramics and i'll probably throw in a couple philiosophy classes since i'm interested in ethics and all.
so this past weekend i was like glued to iFC. i watched this documentary called Stevie which was terrifying and morbidly interesting. i couldn't stop watching it. you should really check it out sometime. i mean who doesn't want to watch an entire film about this good-looking individual....
just to switch things up i later watched Velvet Goldmine for the first time.
i'm going home to va beach tomorrow. that always brings mixed feelings but i think it will be alright. it's going to be just isaac and me because emily and mom will be in charlottesville for emily's orientation; that will be a little less stressful, but still a whole lot of driving. it's annoying because this is the last time i'll be home for a pretty long while and it's really reminding me that i don't really get any "vacation" at all this summer break. i also hate that i never get to see everyone i want to when i come home because there just aren't enough hours in the day.
anyway. i need to pack/get some work done. if you're in va beach call me and we can try to make plans around my brother's schedule.
hearts!
<--- i want this album very badly. actually i want all the albums by CFTPA but mostly this one and the one that has the first two albums on it. also while i'm on a buy me things binge you should buy me this shirt from threadless.
i mean who doesn't love parasites? i know i do. mmmm flatworms.
in other news. i'm still sick. and it still sucks. and i'm going to continue to whine about it until i get better. i mean really. getting sick in the summer? who gets sick in the summer? getting sick is something that happens in the winter from being too cold or too stressed out from classes. sheesh.
summer classes aren't really that bad at all. i need to get working on my online class. i've done some of the work for it but it's strange not having that constant nagging of "deadlines." basically the teacher just wants us to have everything submitted by august somethingth. which is cool, but kind of frustrating if you're a procrasinator like me because that means i can successfully not do work and nothing bad will come from it (hopefully).
teaching swimming lessons is basically the same as it is every summer. stressful, annoying, really well paid. my kids aren't the worst i've ever had, but i hate trying to get used to working with a new group of people in a new pool environment. teaching lessons is very much a habit job, you get into a little lesson groove and you stay there. now i'm having to redo a lot of my teaching stuff because the pool is deeper and the supervisors actually pay attention to your lesson plans. ew. also the people i teach with already have their little groups formed, that i am not a part of. so basically i have to get myself psyched up before i go teach lessons every evening. it's $9.50 an hour for just 2 and a half more weeks...
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